“I’m done changing my mind.”

Official Summary:

Abram and Juliette know each other. They’ve lived down the street from each other their whole lives. But they don’t really know each other—at least, not until Juliette’s mom and Abram’s dad have a torrid affair that culminates in a deadly car crash. Sharing the same subdivision is uncomfortable, to say the least. They don’t speak.

Fast-forward to the neighborhood pharmacy, a few months later. Abram decides to say hello. Then he decides to invite her to Taco Bell. To her surprise as well as his, she agrees. And the real love story begins.

My Thoughts:

I love this book. I want to read it again right now, even though I only finished it days ago. (Side note: This is posted nearly a month after I read it, as full reviews were not allowed before publication) It tackled the pain of addiction and loss without becoming depressing or dark, it dealt with a first love without being a cheesy, tacky cliche, it was fun and lighthearted right when you started feeling down. I’ve heard a lot of bad things about this book, but I felt that it was very honest- Abram is very down-to-earth, willing to try, and Juliette feels as many normal human beings feel, instead of being secure in her aloofness and unwilling to talk about what hurts her. She wasn’t a perfect, cold princess- she was just a regular girl, and that makes for a good story, even if some critics think she’s annoying. But that’s what real people are, and she gets over her insecurities- wouldn’t you have some if your mom got you addicted to Adderall and then died in a car wreck with her extramarital affair partner? And Abram- oh, he is the stuff of dreams. Funny and gentle and sweet, pushy without being annoying, willing to listen when everything is going to pieces, strong enough to hold everything together if he needs to. I loved Abram. All the characters, large or small, were so loveable in their different ways, and I really appreciated the lightness of this read, while it didn’t lack substance. All in all, I thought this was a very real, honest book, and I would highly recommend it.

What to Watch:

Even though I really enjoyed this book, I wouldn’t recommend it for younger readers. First, the drugs. Juliette and Abram are both addicted to their respective prescription medications, and while Abram kicks his addiction fairly quickly with Juliette’s help, she is less willing and struggles with it throughout the book.

Additionally, this is a romance, and there is kissing. They go to a beach house together, and in a moment of insecurity, Juliette intends to sleep with Abram, but they come to the conclusion together that it isn’t a good idea. Abram’s father was also deep into an affair with Juliette’s mother, and that situation is discussed throughout the novel as well.

Other than these, there isn’t any violence and nothing is described in graphic detail. I did really love this book though, and I can’t wait for more by Jay Clark.

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“Hopefully her eye pencil is waterproof.”

Official Summary: (from

     Seventeen-year-old high school senior Shannon Card needs money. And lots of it. She’s been admitted to Wellesley, but her dad just lost his job, and somehow she has to come up with a year of tuition herself. But Shannon’s dream of making big bucks waitressing at the local casino, the Collosio, disappears faster than a gambler’s lucky streak. Her boss is a tyrant, her coworker is nuts, and her chances of balancing a tray full of drinks while wearing high-heeled shoes are slim to none. Worse, time is running out, and Shannon hasn’t made even half the money she’d hoped.

When Shannon receives a mysterious invitation to join Aces Up, a secret network of highly talented college poker players, at first she thinks No way. She has enough to worry about: keeping her job, winning the coveted math scholarship at school, and tutoring her secret crush, Max. But when Shannon musters up the nerve to kiss Max and he doesn’t react at all, the allure of Aces Up and its sexy eighteen-year-old leader, Cole, is suddenly too powerful to ignore.

Soon Shannon’s caught up in a web of lies and deceit that makes worrying about tuition money or a high school crush seem like kid stuff. Still, when the money’s this good, is the fear of getting caught reason enough to fold?

My thoughts:

I actually didn’t realize this was a book until I was meandering through goodreads one day. I really, really love the author, Lauren Barnholdt (at least the books I’ve read) so to find a book by her about poker (which is always a good time) was like a dream come true. And I really, really wanted to love this book just like all the others. But…I didn’t, not really.

Shannon, the main character, just annoyed me. Say what you will for a take-charge heroine, but she didn’t take charge very well. Everything she did resulted in a bad consequence, and not just when she was caught. It was immediate- and her horrific naivete just made me angry.

And the love triangle- what was that?! I hate them anyway, but holy cow, this one took the cake. I decided not to like Max, because Shannon didn’t like Max. And I like the bad boys sometimes, so Cole would do. But it was ALL. SO. RANDOM. At risk of this becoming a rant, I’ll try to stop myself. But there were no smooth transitions between Max and Cole- all of a sudden Shannon and Max were like BFF In Love a day after she had been to ‘third base territory’ with Cole the night before! Can you say indecisive and shallow and pathetic? What happened to my take-charge babe who was going to do what she wanted on her own terms, who didn’t need Max and wasn’t going to pine over him? Because that was all she did, and really all that I felt happened in the whole book.

I’m going to stop myself, fittingly, with the conclusion. I thought it would be epic. I wanted her to go on to win the poker tour and have the money and still be able to turn in Aces Up, but no. She didn’t even go out with a bang, and I think the tournament lasted about ten pages out of the entire book. Quite disappointing. But of course, this is my opinion.

What to Watch: (SPOILERS)

There was romance in this book, but no graphic descriptions of what happened- Shannon talks about being in ‘third base territory’ and she spends a lot of time on Cole’s hotel room bed making out with him. There is also talk of other ‘hookups’ which can mean anything from making out to having sex.

There was also gambling, which may be objectionable to some readers- Shannon gets very involved in the poker scene, as well as lying about her age, getting forged documents, and participating in an illegal collusion scheme with Aces Up.

As far as violence, there are a few minor fights, but nothing very serious.

There was some language in this book, but not too frequent.
Honestly, I didn’t really like this book. It was okay, but the plot structure was confusing, most of the characters were annoying and two-dimensional, and I just couldn’t get into it. Still, I look forward to Barnholdt’s next series, simply based on her last book, Through to You which I absolutely adored. Funny how that happens. Remember that these are all opinions, and I would love to hear yours!

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